DAY 22: Envy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have a job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who have a job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others who have a job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have a job - I realize that a job does not make the man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have money/a lot of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having lots of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others who have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have money - I realize that money does not represent who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have lots of animals (as pets).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having lots of animals (as pets).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who are able to have lots of animals (as pets).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others who have lots of animals (as pets).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have had sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who have had sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others that has had sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have had sex - I realize that whether or not I've had sex does not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have/had a girlfriend/relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who have had a girlfriend/relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those who have had a girlfriend/relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have had a girlfriend/relationship - I realize that having a girlfriend/relationship does not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are seemingly stronger than I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who are seemingly stronger than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than if I am weaker than others who are able to lift more weight than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as weak based on how physically strong I am - I realize that the amount of physical strength I possess does not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have more muscle definition than I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me who have more muscle definition than I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that have more muscle definition than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my muscle definition or size of muscles - I realize that my muscles do not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can perform more push-ups than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me that can do more push-ups than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others who can do more push-ups than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the number of push-ups I can do - I realize that the number of push-ups I can do is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can perform more pull-ups than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as more than me that can do more pull-ups than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can do more pull-ups than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the number of pull-ups I can do - I realize that the number of pull-ups I can do is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can move faster than I able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that can move faster than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can move faster than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how fast I can move - I realize that however fast I can move is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are skinnier than I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my weight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my appearance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those who weigh less or are skinnier than me as better than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that are skinnier than me or weigh less - I realize that my weight or appearance do not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can jump higher than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others who can jump higher than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can jump higher than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how high I can jump - I realize that however high I can jump is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can run faster than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that run faster than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can run faster than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how fast I can run - I realize that however fast I can run is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can run farther than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that can run farther than me as better/more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can run farther than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how much endurance I have/how far I can run  - I realize that however far I am able to run is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are taller than I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that are taller than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that are taller than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how tall I am  - I realize that my height does not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are more vascular than I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that are more vascular than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those who are more vascular than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on how vascular I am - I realize that how vascular my body is is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have more friends than I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that have more friends than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that have more friends than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the number of friends I have - I realize that the number of friends is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who seemingly have a better ability to speak to other people than I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others than can seemingly speak better than me as better than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can seemingly speak better than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my ability to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to con myself into believing that I can't speak as well as I am certain I can/know I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are able to sing well or seemingly sing better than I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others whom are more skilled at videogames than I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that are more skilled in gaming than I as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that are more skilled in gaming than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on an ability to play a game - I realize that an ability to play a (video)game is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have larger penis than mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that have a larger penis than mine as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that have a larger penis.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the size of my dick - I realize that I am not the size of my dick.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have a car/motorcycle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that have a car/motorcycle as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others that have a car/motorcycle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have a motorcycle - I realize that whether or not I have a car/motorcycle is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can play a musical instrument or play a musical instrument better than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that are skilled in playing musical instrument(s) as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can skillfully play musical instrument(s).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I can skillfully play a musical instrument - I realize that an ability to play a musical instrument is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who are seemingly better able to retain knowledge/information than I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that can easily retain knowledge/information as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can more easily retain knowledge/information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my ability to retain knowledge/information - I realize that I am not an ability to retain knowledge/information and any knowledge/information I possess is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who have traveled around the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that have traveled around the world as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that have traveled around the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on whether or not I have traveled around the world - I realize that whether or not I have traveled does not determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in envy towards others who can dance seemingly better than I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others that can dance well/better than me as more than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than those that can dance well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my ability to dance - I realize that my ability to dance is not who I am.

When and as I see myself going into a participating of envying another, I stop myself from participating in the experience of envy and realize that I am fucking myself by and through this experience - so I breath and direct myself here within self-honesty and self-forgive and direct myself through the point.

DAY 21: Sounds Annoying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when I here a noise that I do not 'like'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in feeling annoyed when I hear a noise that I do not 'like'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in loss of self control when I hear noises that I do not like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become bothered/affected by noises.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when I hear loud noises and I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in feeling annoyed when I hear loud noises and I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when I hear someone doing yard work outside and I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in feeling annoyed when I hear someone doing yard work and I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when I hear a lawn mower and I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I am attempting to sleep and I hear others moving around the house.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in feeling annoyed when I hear a lawn mower outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world world needs to be quiet when I am attempting to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world needs to be quite when I decide that I want it to be quite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when I hear trains outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in feeling annoyed when I hear trains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed whenever a train comes by due to previous experiences of being 'stuck' at a railroad crossing when I am trying to get to somewhere.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to past experiences of being 'stuck' at railroad crossings when a train is passing by and I experience anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear a car horn beeping for apparently 'no reason'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear a helicopter passing overhead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear loud machinery outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear garbage trucks outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear a chainsaw running.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in resentment towards another who is cutting down/up trees with a chainsaw.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear an old TV hissing/buzzing when the volume is turned all the way down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger/feeling annoyed when I hear motorcycles racing around.

I realize that I am not the anger I experience/participate in when I hear noises.

I realize that I am not the annoyance experienced/participated in when I hear noises.

I realize that I am the silence within.

I realize that the world is noisy and there will noises abroad and I cannot expect there to be silence in the world when I deem it necessary.

When and as I see myself participating in anger when I hear a noise that I do not 'like', I stop myself from participating in the anger and realize that I am not remaining stable in breath - so I breath and direct myself through the anger and release it.

When and as I see myself participating in feeling annoyed when I hear a noise I do not 'like', I Stop myself from participating in feeling annoyed and realize that I am not remaining stable in breath - so I breath and direct myself through the point of annoyance and release it.

DAY 20: Entitlement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more of something than another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more deserving of or entitled to certain privileges than another is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another is because of the education I received during school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I supposedly know more than someone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my self-worth on knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to what I know.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I have more information stored in my conscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as more than another based on the information I have gathered in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the information I have gathered.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I have access to more information than those who do not have access to as much information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another based on my ability to access the internet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another based on my own self-perceived intelligence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to intelligence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am more than another based on my own perceived intelligence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as more than another based on how healthy I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I am healthier than some/most human beings on Earth - I realize that I am healthier by virtue of the location and social structure I was born into and currently live in, not because I am more 'valuable' than another human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I am taller than most people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself define myself according to my height

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as more than another because I am tall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I am able to read and write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as more than another based on my ability to read and write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my ability to read and write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more entitled to more privileges based on the location I was born at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the place I was born.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because of the social structure/middle class that I was born into.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the social structure I am currently a part in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to more privileges than another because I was born as an American and live in the United States of America.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than another because I am 'American'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an 'American.'

I realize that I am not entitled to more privileges than another human being that has been given the gift of life.

I realize that all human beings are born equally and all deserve life equally.

I realize that no one is more than another in reality - only the mind separates and categorizes based on opinions and perceived values based on color, creed, ethnicity, etc.

When and as I see myself participating in a perception that I am entitled to more privileges than another, I stop myself from participating within the perception that I am entitled to more privileges than another - I breath and realize/understand that all is equal and one.

DAY 19: Going Out of the House

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can stay home all day and still change myself practically and effectively without interacting with physical reality as me as all as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fool myself into believing that I am obligated to stay home because there's work to do inside that's more important than going outside and interacting with the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to con myself into staying inside all day day when there is supposedly work to do in the house, when I actually do not even do work around the house, I distract myself with bullshit.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see/realize/understand the ludicrousness of a belief that I can stay indoors, by myself, and still practically/effectively live and participate in existence with other human beings and all other life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to home because that is where I am comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to home because that is where free food is. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing free food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to home because that is where the entertainment on the computer is. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing opportunities to entertain myself and distract myself by 'playing' on the computer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to information I find on the internet that I become/am entertained by because I've allowed myself to believe that I am actually learning anything about myself or what is happening in the world by staring at a screen the majority of a day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to entertaining myself with useless information I find/read on the internet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am actually learning anything or doing anything practical with the information I read on the internet, especially if I do not use it practically or apply it.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to practically apply and live any useful information I may find on the internet, instead I store it away in the confines of my mind, building myself up as the self-defined accumulator of information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an information accumulator.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to accumulating information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the 'good' feeling when I take in new information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to a relationship I have created in my mind with my dog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached to my dog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing a perceived relationship I've created in my mind with my dog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being perceived as 'heartless' for releasing attachment I had to a dog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing all the time that I spend entertaining myself and distracting myself instead of going outside to actually live and apply myself practically in this world as all of reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going out into the world and making an effective/practical/living change in myself and in the world as reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear interacting through and as myself in the physical reality with other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being embarrassed when interacting/participating within reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown as what is unexpected when I go out into the world and actually/really/practically participate within it and interact with it to bring about change that is best for self and best for all.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to form an expectation in my mind that practically participating/interacting with physical reality, outside of the house, will be 'horrible' because I am more comfortable inside where I won't be exposed to anything like physical interaction, or communication with another human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating with human beings outside of my own perceived comfort zone and relationship circle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be comfortable with stagnation and not interacting/participating within reality..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to only interacting with another human being if and when an occasion calls for it or if I feel comfortable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an observer, thus limiting myself as a participant within this reality, and only interacting/communicating with another/others if and when an occasion calls for it or if I am comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my participation within physical reality by not using my communication skills to the best of my ability.

I realize that I am not the fear of stopping my habit of staying inside most of the day.

I realize that I am not the fear of interacting and participating within physical reality, making a living change as what is best for all.

I realize that I am not the fear of stepping outside and taking the first step to living change.

I commit myself to practically interact and participate with reality by going outside and communicating to other human beings.

When and as I see myself participating in an apprehension/fear to practically participate outdoors, I stop myself from participating within this fear to participate outdoors and realize that I am not this fear of practically participating outdoors - I stop, breath, and direct myself out the door and actually interact and participate with other human beings 'outside' and in reality.

DAY 18: Humbling Myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become arrogant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ignorant.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to be humble.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/tell myself that I don't have to write myself out to know myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see/realize/understand that thoughts/feelings/emotions cover up who I really am - I realize that I must uncover the 'real me' by releasing the thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the thought that self-forgiveness isn't the best way to assist and support myself in stopping the mind and bringing myself Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/tell myself that I don't really have to forgive myself for allowing myself to have lived as the thoughts/words/deeds that I have created as abuse in this existence and within my perspective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'Why do I have to/need to write self forgiveness?'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that I am not responsible for myself and this existence out of arrogance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not directly responsible for every consequence manifested within and as this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an unwillingness to humble myself and realize that I change who I am within self-writing and self-forgiveness to change what I do to bring a practical living change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire remaining ignorant to/of myself and what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and without.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to accept self-responsibility for every thought/word/deed that I have accepted and allowed to exist in and of myself as who I am.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to accept self-responsibility for every thought/feeling/emotion that exist within me as the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that thoughts/feelings/emotions are illusory and deceptive.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that there is consequence for every thought/feeling/emotion that I participate within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a habit out of only stopping the thoughts/feelings/emotions that I dislike or believe couldn't benefit me - I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thoughts/feelings/emotions can be beneficial to my well-being in anyway whatsoever, instead of realizing that every thought/feeling/emotion is a deception/illusion and literally sucks the life out of me.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to have a look at the thoughts/feelings/emotions that supposedly have me 'feeling' good - I realize that this good feeling is positive energy based in deception.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see/realize/understand that positive energy creates negative energy within me and the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am going to have to expose every single thought/feeling/emotion and thought/word/deed I have ever participated in if I am to be humble.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to humble myself in using the tool self-writing/self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to remain humble and to walk this process slowly while stopping every thought/feeling/emotion that will cause a thought/word/deed to create an abusive consequence within and as existence as me as all as equality and oneness.

DAY 17: Some Fears of Missing Out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear exposing to myself and others what I have allowed myself to fear as fear of missing out - I realize that I am not this fear of exposing my fear as fear of missing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire hiding from myself my fear as fear of missing out - I realize that I am not this desire to hide my fear as fear of missing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on getting into a fight with another being - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on being in a fight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying before I have gotten into a fight - I realize how ridiculous this is as wanting to fight another being has no practical use whatsoever in reality and is abuse. I realize that I am not this fear of dying before I fight another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never knowing what it means to fight another being - I realize that I am not this fear of never knowing what it means to be in a real fight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear of missing out on testing myself in a fight with another being - I realize that I am not this fear of missing on on testing myself in a fight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare fighting with living - I realize that life cannot be compared.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on having sex - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on sex, but that it had been mindfucked into me through the media portraying sex as something I must do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on losing my virginity - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on losing my virginity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am missing out on what it means to live by not having sex - I realize that having sex is not living and it is nothing I should fear missing out on doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on performing cunnilingus  -I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on performing cunnilingus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on being in a relationship with a female - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on a relationship with a female.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on what it means to be in a relationship with a female - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on what it means to be in a relationship with a female, and I will understand what it means when and if it happens by process of walking it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on what others are doing in their lives - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on what others are doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on knowing what other beings are doing - I realize that I am not this fear of the unknown and missing out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire knowing what other beings are doing with themselves - I realize that I am not this desire to know more, but it is the mind that desires accumulation of meaningless drivel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on the biggest news - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on the biggest news, and that it is he mind that desires new knowledge of the outside world to sustain its existence and being up to date.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on watching movies and knowing their plot - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on movies and that movies are not reality and have no basis in reality, they are fantasy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on what's happening on television - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on television.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on what's going on in Facebook - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on what's going on in Facebook.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on what the next videogames are going to be and be like - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on what the next videogames are going to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on playing the videogames that are going to be released in the future - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on playing videogames.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on completing videogames that I had set out to beat, but no longer have any real interest in - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on playing videogames and completing them, completing videogames offers not support or any practical use in this existence and only serve as entertainment to distract.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing out on reading books - I realize that I am not this fear of missing out on reading books.

What and as I see myself participating within a fear of missing out on something, I stop myself from participating within a fear of missing out and realize that the fear of missing out is a mindfuck designed to distract me from myself and what's going on Here - So I stop and breath and direct myself through this point of missing out and release it from myself.

DAY 16: Food as a Favorite Pastime

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with the thought/idea of eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with the thought when am I going to eat next.

I forgive myself that I accept and allow myself to eat past the point of being satisfied or being full and overwork my physical body unnecessarily by having it digest more food.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that when I overeat and my body have to work more than necessary to digest the extra food that I've eaten, attention is taken away from other parts of my body that may require attention and dis-ease is created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest dis-ease within myself/physical body by overeating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste food unnecessarily by overeating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of food and overeat it instead of using/eating food effectively to assist and support my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take food for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/feel guilt when I had/have overeaten and feel overfilled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm my human physical body by overeating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat more than what is necessary to assist and support my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the sensation I experience when I taste a food that is 'good' to me.

I forgive myself that I accept and allow myself to desire food/eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my living around what/when I can eat next.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live to eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for eating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having no more food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going hungry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear starving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire eating snacks a lot of the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat based on how good it looks or tastes - instead of eating food based on how it is able to assist and support my human physical body and provide fuel to sustain myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard healthy food in place of junk food because junk food tastes better - instead I realize that the best option for me is to eat the best food for me that will support my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive food as a source of comfort for me.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that food does not provide comfort, but my perception that it does allows me to perceive that I am comfortable in eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that food assists and supports me when I am feeling sad - instead of realizing that the illusion and belief that food somehow medicates me or supports me in my feeling of sadness is only a created deception in and of the mind and I need to deal with the feeling of sadness effectively, physically, not putting it off to the side by eating energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that food creates good feelings within my human physical body - I realize that the good feelings are manifestations of energy of and as the mind, based in illusion/deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become distracted by eating food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare eating food with abusing drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger/frustration/annoyance when I desire food and I cannot get it 'immediately' or when I want it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become greedy with the food I eat - never considering those who do not have access to food, let alone fresh food

I forgive myself that I have never allowed myself to consider those who do not have access to food/fresh food, those who strive to get food daily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to putting tasteful things in my mouth when I do not require them to assist and support myself, without considering the consequences of eating what I eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use food as a source of entertainment for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the different ways and tastes of foods as sources of entertainment for myself to keep me preoccupied within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest physical illness within myself for eating food that I seemingly enjoy when it is in my mouth, but ultimately does not support my physical body by and through the digestion process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest extra gases within my bowels by eating unwholesome foods.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to irritate my intestines by eating food that does not support my human physical body in the best way possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest stomach pains by eating too much food or more food than what is necessary for physical support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become overweight by overeating and eating food that does not physically support me.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the overeating, overindulging, and desiring of more food than is necessary is only the mind wanting more energy for itself so it is able to sustain its existence - I realize that my human physical body only requires so much food to support itself, but the mind wants and desires more.

I realize that I am not this obsession I have created with eating food, overeating food, and eating food that does not physically support me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to salty tasting food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overindulge in salty foods.

I realize that I am not the addiction to eating food that I have created in myself.

I realize that I am not this desire to constantly eat food.

I realize that I am not this discomfort and disease I have created in myself by way of overeating and eating non-supportive food.

I commit myself to eating food only to assist and support me physically and to enjoy food only when it is necessary for me to eat - when I am hungry or require sustenance to support myself.

I commit myself to stop my obsession and addiction to food as it does not assist and support me and only creates disease and discomfort within me physically, both unnecessary.

I commit myself to eat only food that assists and supports me in the best way possible, when it is possible to do so.

I commit myself to stop myself from desiring to eat food when it is unnecessary to eat.

When and as I see myself participating within and desiring overindulgence in eating food, I stop myself form participating within this experience to overindulge in eating food and I realize that this is the mind desiring more food/energy than is necessary - I stop and breath and I direct myself through this point of overindulgence of food with self-honesty and the realization that I only need food to support my physical body, I do not eat food to support the mind, and within walking through I release myself from the point.