Tuesday, May 22, 2012

DAY 29: Underwater Swimming

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear the dark underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing something 'foreign' underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear concrete objects underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear dead trees underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear stepping on something weird when walking in water.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear rusted objects underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear plants underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear dead human bodies underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear boats underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear buildings underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear man-made structures underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear drowning.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear getting tired while swimming and sinking to the bottom.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear something I can't see attacking me while I'm swimming underwater.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear swimming in the ocean.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear fish biting me while in the water.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear giant snapping turtles biting me while swimming.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear swimming in deep water when I can't see the bottom of the body of water.

When and as I see myself participating within the fear of seeing something while swimming underwater, I stop myself from participating within the fear of seeing something underwater and I realize that I am not this fear - I breath and direct myself through the fear starring the fear down and walking with self-honesty and thereby release it.

When and as I see myself participating within a fear of drowning while swimming, I stop myself from participating within the fear of drowning and realize that I am not this fear of drowning - I breath and direct myself through the fear of drowning and release it.

When and as I see myself participating within fearing something I cannot see while swimming, I stop myself from participating within fearing something I cannot see while swimming and realize I am not this fear - I breath and direct myself through fearing something I cannot see while swimming and release it.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

DAY 28: Fear to Speak to An Attractive Woman

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating to a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am not worthy enough to talk to woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as inferior to woman I find to be attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to assume that I will be perceived as creepy if I communicate to a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear that a woman I am attracted to will become spiteful when and if I communicate to her.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear any semblance of intimacy with a woman I find attractive if and when I communicate to her.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating to women for fear of getting to close to them.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience nervousness when I consider communicating to a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hope that when I communicate to a woman I am attracted to that she will enjoy me.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself when I move myself to communicate to a woman or a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accept and allow myself to form a relationship with the image of a woman I find attractive in my mind when and as I consider communicating to her.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself when and as I move myself to communicate to a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate within self-regret for not moving myself to communicate to a woman I find attractive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I desire to communicate to a woman I find attractive so that we might form a relationship to then have sex.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to desire communicating to a woman I find attractive for the sole purpose of fulfilling a desire to have sex.

When and as I see myself participating within a fear to communicate to a woman I am attracted to, I stop myself from participating within a fear to communicate to a woman I find attractive and I realize that I am not this fear - I breath and direct myself  through this point of fearing to communicate to a woman I find attractive with self-honesty and live what is best for all.

When and as I see myself desiring to communicate to a woman I find attractive just so I can maybe have sex, I stop myself from participating within this desire and realize that I am not this desire - I stop and breath ad direct myself through this point of desire with self-honesty and live what is best for all.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

DAY 27: Who Will Save Me?

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a Christian.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the words in the 'Holy Bible' are absolute truth.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in worshiping 'God', reading the Bible, and believing Jesus is the savior of humanity I am in fact supporting the crucifixion, supporting the crucifixion of myself as the true self-expression that I am.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to remorse in guilt, denial, fear and judgment within myself for allowing the crucifixion of myself as my true self-expression that I am.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus is a savior.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that asking Jesus for forgiveness would give me release from my problems - instead of realizing that in asking Jesus for forgiveness I am giving power away to a figment of my imagination and it only produces 'good' feeling.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek after a good feeling in asking Jesus for forgiveness - I realize that it is only a good feeling and in no way am I taking responsibility for my thoughts/feelings/emotions that generate abuse in this existence.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deny my own self-responsibility in asking Jesus for forgiveness - instead of realizing that forgiveness is a gift to give to myself; a gift of giving myself back to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that praying to 'something' 'out there' that I've labeled as God/Jesus is comparable to taking responsibility for myself as all as one as equality - I realize that prayer in no way assists and supports myself or others in this existence in taking responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inferior to Jesus.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus will save those who believe in him from going to hell.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus will descend from Heaven and save humanity from an apocalypse.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus will save me from sin.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus was/is more than a man that manifested on Earth and stood as himself to show human beings forgiveness and Love Thy Neighbor As Yourself or the principle of Give and Receive.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus is superior to me.

I forgive myself that accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not believe that Jesus is the savior of man then I will burn in a place called hell for eternity.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself be and live a lie, labeling myself as Christian, because I feared being an 'outcast'.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear not being liked by Christians.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear not being liked by Christians.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being labeled a heretic by Christians.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings have dominion over Earth because of words in the Bible.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings are superior to nature.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings are superior to the animal kingdom.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from nature and the animal kingdom by believing I am superior to them.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe in a God as a mystical man that lives in clouds/heaven.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize/understand/see that physical reality is 'God' as all life manifests in the physical and Life is the physical.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for limiting me to a belief system - instead of standing up and taking self-responsibility for accepting and allowing myself to live the self-dishonest as a belief-system.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that sex is shameful/wrong because of a belief system.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that Christians are dumb/stupid for believing that simply believing in Jesus Christ will save them and bring them to Heaven - I realize that Heaven will only come about on Earth if human beings stop and change themselves through self-forgiveness and self-honesty to bring about an equal money system that supports all life.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up to Christians.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking against the Holy Bible.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking against 'God' as the man in the clouds/Heaven.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear being ridiculed by family/friends for not being a beLIEver/Christian.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear losing friends for not adhering to the same believe system they do.

Friday, May 18, 2012

DAY 26: Feeling Sleepy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a desire to sleep when I seemingly have nothing to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep for the sake of passing time when I believe I have nothing to do practically and physical to move myself in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that state of momentary comfort within and as sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to experience dreams.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that when I am feeling tired, it is because I as the mind believe I have nothing to occupy my/itself with and desire to experience 'something' within a dreamland - instead of practically participating in physical reality.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that I can direct myself through feeling sleepy/tired by participating and moving within the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an energetic feeling of being relaxed - instead of realizing that I do not require sleep to relax myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stiffen and weaken my muscles by having slept and not moved around.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a feeling of sleepiness exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being tired during the day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger when I do not allow myself to take naps or sleep my life away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anger when I cannot satisfy a desire to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience frustration what I cannot satisfy a desire to sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire oversleeping in the mornings - I realize that when I do this I am sleeping my life away and do not require to oversleep.

I commit myself to stay awake all day - save the 4-6 hours of sleep that a physical human body requires to support itself.

I realize that only the mind needs 8-9 hours of sleep to recharge itself and to use energy out of the human physical body.

When and as I see myself participating within a desire to sleep when unnecessary, I stop myself form participating within a desire to sleep unnecessarily and realize that this desire to sleep is a designed response of the mind consciousness system wanting to recharge itself to sustain itself through my human physical body - so I breath and direct myself through this point by moving myself physically and participating within physical activity to push through the point.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

DAY 25: Silent Observer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a silent observer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to sit idly by as a silent observer, abdicating my voice and my participation within reality as the words I speak; to not take action in situations and to only gather information and knowledge to store within my mind to organize and keep secret to myself as I watch the world pass by.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my voice, from time to time, within situations where I would prefer to not participate within conversations due to shyness/fear I experience and unwillingness to communicate openly with other human beings.

I forgive myself myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a shy person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as shy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to participate within conversation with other human beings due to a fear to communicate openly with another.

I forgive myself that I accept and allow myself to experience fear within situations where I see myself being exposed to openness in communication with other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire only saying the bare minimum in conversation  because I would rather speak as little as possible - giving only sound bites instead of fully explaining myself and communicating honestly with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play guessing games with people where I'll say as little as possible, wanting them to guess what I'm meaning to say - instead of saying what I mean and not playing games with people's heads.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that people guess and try to figure out what I'm saying to them using as little words/speech as possible - instead of fully explaining myself and speaking specifically and directly in situations or putting it all on the table, as it were.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire not explaining myself - I realize that not wanting to explain myself is another form of hiding from myself and another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer exhibiting a silent exterior while all the while thoughts are buzzing in my mind within me, making wild assumptions/accusations about the situation(s) I am participating in - instead of asking questions or communicating to people about the situation here physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in 'thinking' myself through a task or activity, encouraging myself to participate within thoughts/feelings/emotions even more - instead of talking myself through, Here, physically where reality is actually occurring and I can actually live the words and enjoy the activity or task in stability as breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as crazy for talking to myself during activities I participate within.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that having voices in my head that I have defined as me is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my voice or the words I speak because of a fear of being told that I'm wrong or being told 'no'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being told that I am wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being told 'no'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when another tells me I am wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience/participate in anger when another tells me 'no'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is my ego that is affected or given offense when I am told I'm wrong or told no - I realize that who I am is capable of taking criticism from another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remain quite when and as I experience anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I stay quiet when I experience anger, it's likely that I will have an outburst an possibly say something I could have done without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear stumbling or stuttering my words when I speak - I realize that this fear only substantiates the stumbling and stuttering that may occur.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making another or others angry when I speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making sense or logic.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that I am the words I speak.

I commit myself to open myself to communication with others.

I commit myself to using my words within what is best for all - within equality and oneness.

When and I see myself fearing to speak in a situation, I stop myself form participating within the fear to speak  and realize that this fear is not who I am and that I am the words I speak - so I direct myself, I breath and I move myself through this point.

When and as I see myself desiring to remain a silent observer, I stop myself from participating within the desire to remain a silent observer and I speak and participate within reality and the moment - I direct myself, I am breathing and I move myself through this point.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

DAY 24: Blaming Others for the Problems Existent in the World

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame white/Caucasian people for the current manifested problems existing within and as the world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame governments of countries around the world for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the United States government for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame Barack Obama for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame George W. Bush for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame any past U.S. presidents for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the Chinese government for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame wealthy governments of the world for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame banking establishments for the current problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame bankers for the current problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame banking families for the current problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the Rockefeller family for the current manifested problems existing in and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the Rothschild family for the current manifested problems existing in and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the wealthiest 1 percent of the world's population for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the generations older than the one I was born out of for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my parents for the current manifested problems existing within and as the world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame friends for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the pornography industry for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame television networks for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the FOX network for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame NBC for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame CBS for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame ABC for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame public education for the current manifested problems existing within and as this current world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the education system for the current manifested problems existing within and as this current world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others outside myself for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to take self-responsibility for the current manifested problems existing within and as this world system.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to take self-responsibility as myself as the world system one and equal.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to stand up within myself for the world system as it stands to bring about a system that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misplace responsibility outside of myself for the world system that I have accepted and allowed to exist - I realize that I am directly responsible for the world system in its creation.

I commit myself to stand up in myself, as the system - to walk with and as the system to bring about a change that is best for all; to bring about a system that supports all life one and equal.

When and as I see myself participating in blaming another for the current world system's issues, I stop myself form participating within blame and realize that I need to take self-responsibility for what I am blaming - I breath and direct myself with self-responsibility to change myself to what is best for all inside-out.

Monday, May 14, 2012

DAY 23: Stop Giving Up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want to give up on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire giving up on process of self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participating within thoughts about giving up on my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts/ideas about giving up on existence and just letting things 'play out' as they are.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that I desire to give up because I desire an easier way out other than waking through a process of self-forgiveness and writing myself to freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an easy way out.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that letting things play out as they are is abdicating my self-responsibility for life.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if I give up on myself then I am giving up on all human beings, all animals, all plants, and all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire giving up and sleeping through existence/life instead of taking self-responsibility for who I am and what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire giving up because I perceive giving up as taking the easy way out - instead of realizing that in giving up, I would only allow bullshit and self-dishonesty to continue, only to have to stand up later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate giving up with going my own way - not realizing that going my own way is not what is best for all as it is based in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to having given up in the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in guilt for having given up in the past.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that giving up only exist of the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that in the moment of giving up on everything, of the reason I have decided to give up, compounds within me -- tenfold.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that standing up after giving up only makes standing up even more difficult.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if I allow myself to give up then my effectiveness, my statements, my application has not been effective - I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled.consumed by the experience of wanting to give up.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that giving up doesn't exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear wanting to give up.

When and as I see myself going into a desire to give up; participating within a desire to give up, I stop myself from going into/participating within that desire to give up and breath, I stop and I do not give up - I refuse to give up. I'm walking through this as me and I am standing up as me as life -- oneness and equality. I am Here, I am doing this, I am willing this and I direct myself, I am not a desire to give up. I do not accept and allowgiving up within and as me.